My Heart Is Super Sad....


My heart is sad and achy. This post is going to be somewhat depressing for me and maybe, just maybe, might possibly make you all feel sorry for me too.


As you know we have been counting down the days until Mike is able to come home. We have anxiously been awaiting November because this is when he comes home for is R&R. I was talking to Mike the other night when he said, "Do you want the good news or the bad news first?" I hesitantly responded with "The bad news please."


The bad news? Mike is not going to be able to come home on leave. BOOOOO. I am sad and mad all at the same time. Sad because I miss him and I know the kids do too. Having Mike come home as been all they talk about. "When Dad comes home this" and "When Dad comes home that." I am mad because well, it's just not FAIR! How come all the other soldiers get to come home and not mine?


My heart hurts every time I think about this because I haven't had the nerve to tell the kids. How mean am I for not telling them? I don't know how I am going to do it. They are going to be overwhelmingly (is that even a word?) SAD and there is going to be a lot of tears involved. I don't know how much good it will do to try and explain it to them. I just don't think they will understand.


O....how I wish I wasn't the one who had to tell them the sad news.

10 comments:

Kesha and Kenny Elliott said...

How SAD!! Hang in there Julie!

Brian & Chelsey Hafen said...

O my gosh Julie. That makes me cry. I must say that you are a very strong woman, wife & mother. I'm so sorry for you & your family. Do you know when he will be able to come home next?

anne said...

I'm SO sorry. :( That is terribly unfair. So, he doesn't get to come home at all or is it just delayed?

And don't worry...I'm sure Jace will help with anything you need. He's got a special spot in his heart for you. :)

AND if you need more girls nights where my kids come and destroy your house, just let me know. :)

The Winget Family said...

I am sorry to hear that Julie. Please let me know if you need anything. Your family is in our prayers =)

Leslie Ann McRae said...

We are sooo sorry Julie. Now you know why we always say "I hate the Air Force". Unfortunately, that's just the way the service is. I'm sure Mike is devastated as well. Just take the little ones in your arms and give each other extra big loves and hugs. Wish we were there to help Julie. We send you our love. Mom & Dad

The Winget Family said...

Madison and I stopped by your house tonight! Madison made Charlie and you some cupcakes. So maybe we will try again tomorrow!

Brooke said...

Oh, Jules. My prayers are with you and your family. That is so hard. I'm praying he'll come home soon.

Mike, Steph, and Peyton said...

oh Julie, we are so sorry to hear that Mike isnt coming home :( i know you were looking so forward to it! we were too!! our hearts go out to your family. please let us know if you need ANYTHING!!

Williams Family said...

I know I say this all the time but when my kids stop coughing we will have to hang out. You know we will do anything for ya we can. take care and you r the wonderful mom. best of luck

bbray said...

Heartbreaking! The kids need to see their dad! YOU need to see your husband. And Mike needs to see you all. So sorry you have to deal with this, but you are holding it together well. You are an amazing mom. Hopefully this military separation won't last much longer.